Driven

I have a condition. I don’t know where it comes from or how many people have it. The only thing I do know is it seems to be common among entrepreneurs (spell that five times fast!). My wife kids me, partially in jest and maybe partially in concern, that I’m always thinking. It’s true – my mind won’t shut off. Eating breakfast. Waiting in line. Watching a movie. Sitting in church. Drifting of to sleep. Operating heavy machinery. Apparently my brain thinks these are ideal times to commence stirring this giant melting pot of ideas, inspiration, and analysis that resides in my head. [ On a side note: How did we figure out that when we are in the process of thinking, its all taking place in the head region? Is it because we look up when we’re thinking really hard?] So what am I thinking about? Creative things, like Kim & Jason. The next story line. How to make the web site better. Improving my drawing skills. Becoming more proficient at businessey things. Analyzing things I have observed that day. What I want to be doing in five years. What I should be doing now to get there. I pick apart the design of commercials, advertisements, products, movie posters, mall signage. And on and on. I seriously can’t think of a time I’m not thinking creatively; although my dreams lately have taken on a weird Star Wars slant, which I’ll not discuss here. I think it all stems from this bar that I’ve set for myself. I simply will not rest until I’m a better cartoonist than Bill Watterson, or a better leader than George W. Bush, or producing better designs and more innovative ideas than Apple. Granted, I don’t know if I’ll ever reach those plateaus – but I’m inexplicably driven toward them. Kim wonders how I don’t go crazy sometimes. I think I probably would if I wasn’t having so much fun.