I have heard other parents say about parenthood that if their child lives to see adulthood it’ll be a miracle. Forget about raising “good kids” just try to keep them alive! I’ve been very aware of this recently. There are times in the middle of the night when I’m so out of it that I think it’s a miracle that I don’t accidentally bump Lucy’s head on the doorway as I walk her to the living room for her feeding.
With having an infant in the winter (in Wisconsin), there have been so many occasions when Jason or myself are carrying her in her car seat and have had to balance ourselves over ice and snow. The thought of falling with her sends chills down my spine. I’ve also thought about how bad it would be to fall with her while walking down a flight of stairs. Oh my. Another fear is when Lucy is so wet and squirmy after her bath, it would sure be easy for her to slip out of my hands. A week ago, I almost accidentally jacked her in the head with my very heavy laptop bag, after it fell off of my shoulder, but her car seat protected her. So much to worry about.
Forget about adulthood, how is this child going to make it to age five? I cannot imagine life without her, so the thought of something harming her just fills me up with fear.
Jason mentions in his speaking programs that no one has control over their lives. As much as the media keeps telling us we are living in uncertain times, all of are lives are always uncertain. Accidents, illness, and unplanned events are all possible for any of us, no matter how strong the economy might be. Fear is such a barrier to living. Instead of being riddled with fear… and Adultitis, we have to step back and be willing to let it go. There’s no reason to dwell on what could happen or to spend your life hidden away for fear of what tomorrow will bring. Instead you should live each moment with gusto. Enjoy it all, hope for the best and pray for the strength to get through the unexpected hurtles. I’ll also be sure to say an extra prayer of thanksgiving to Lucy’s awesome guardian angel.
Sounds like you both have a case of Young Parentitus. Be not afraid. I know easier to say or sing than live sometimes. The solution might be our ongoing “mindfulness” as we carry on with our everyday tasks. Last July we got two puppies–a brother and sister–and they’re a joy. Yeah, those cuddly beings can get a little slippery when wet. Just hang on.
Victor
Boy do I know those fears. I actually did crack my oldest daughter’s head on my bedroom door jam! I was so sleep deprived,she had a extreme case of cholic, that I cut the corner too tight going out the doorway and BAM! She is now an absolutely gorgeous fine arts major in college. We wanted to raise kids that had no fears of trying new stuff….it lead to the occasion cuts and bruises BUT was well worth every scarey moment for me. My 15 year went skiing for the first time this year without us,without a lesson,came back alive and had a great time. SO NOW WORRIES!