I love technology. Especially cool gadgets like the new computer I’m waiting patiently for FedEx to bring me. ( http://www.apple.com/imac ) But sometimes technology can cause me to want to throw things out the window and scream like a school girl who’s just seen a daddy longlegs. I have been going back and forth with tech support for the past three weeks (it seems like three million), trying to get The Lemonade Stand back online. I’m pretty good with certain technological things, but this issue has been completely over my head, and I’m at the mercy of said tech support. Through many fits of “Why, God, Why?”, I’ve come to the conclusion that this is a test. I think. Life is one big series of tests. You pass one and you move to another. In the end, I believe you’re a lot closer to the person God had seen in you all along. Only with a bigger gut. I think the challenges before me are tests of reliance, discipline, and patience. Do I have the faith to rely on tech support, and more importantly, God, to provide a solution I’m not able to come up with? Do I have the discipline to focus on the other things that need to be done and not be consumed incessantly tinkering with a problem that I can only make worse as I desperately clamor for control in the situation? And do I have the patience to withstand all of it? That’s the big question. The only thing I can be certain of is that after this episode is behind me, another test will come rolling along. Someone once said that you can’t control what life throws at you, but you can control how you react to it. And so thus far, nothing has been hurled out my office window. Perhaps by the time you read this, everything will be back to normal and I’ll be loving Silicon Valley again. But if you read this a year from now and we’re still having problems, look me up in Haiti. I’ll be on the beach with a volleyball named Wilson.
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I am definitely a believer that not only is God testing us, but there is a reason for everything. I have found though my life thus far that things go really well for quite some time, and then something happens that takes all your might and strength to overcome.
Recently, God tested me by letting me discover that my father is actually gay. It was quite the eye opener as that would have never crossed my mind to be a possibility. Through many long discussions with my husband, who I believe is a God-send, we discovered that I did not have a problem with his way of life, but how I found out. It has been a long road to travel since December, and I know that the road ahead is still quite long, but with family support and faith, I can learn to deal with it.
Your words of being “a lot closer to the person God had seen in you all along” is quite accurate. I have discovered that I am a much stronger individual then I had thought and have the power to control my life and my choices. I like the person I have discovered within me.